Okay okay, so Van didn’t sleep those magical 10 hours last night, he was up twice in the night, and I fed him both times. I feel like if I go in and hold him I am giving in to his needs. Because that is the only way he knows how to fall asleep.. It is so difficult, I wanted Conner to go in and rock him back to sleep but he just put him back in the crib to cry some more. I got frustrated and gave in. His cries were different last night, I could tell he was really hungry last night or he had a tummy ache and when i went in and got him out of his crib he was cold too! So all of those things make for a very awake baby! I asked Conner to try to rock him back to sleep and he was holding him upright talking to him instead… So needless to say that is when I figured out I needed to nurse him for sure.
I didn’t go to sleep until almost 2am last night anyways so I was so tired last night and this morning. Thank God Van slept til almost 9:30 this morning.
We did have a big day yesterday and he didn’t get his normal naps in so that messes up his night time sleep… I could go on and on about this because it is something I am dying to master.
Van is 6 months old and he was not sleeping through the night. At all. He was napping all night long. 4 to 5 hour naps, each punctuated with a quick nursing session and then he’s back down for another few hours. Thiswent on from 7 p.m., when I put him down, until 7 in the morning, when he wakes up. And I go to him, willingly. he is my baby, and so I actually soaked him in during those feeding sessions at night. I rock with him. I smell his head. I kiss him. I think about how wonderful life is going to be for him. And then I lay him back down into his crib and climb back into my bed. And think. And toss and turn. And make “to do” lists in my head. And plan the dinner menu for the week. And then, I finally fall back asleep. I needed some sleep. Desperately. I had tried everything. Finally, we agreed upon a method from a book called “Healthy Sleep Habits, Happy Child.” In three words: cry it out. And before you roll your eyes and say to yourself “what kind of a mother does that?” let me tell you that it works. And when you’ve tried other methods and they haven’t worked for your child, you try another one. Well, this happened to be our other one. No two children are alike, and what works for one may not work for another.
So this is the one we are trying for now!
Tonight I am tired, Lola has a cone on her head because the groomers cut her little girlie neck. Our house is clean, I got pulled over this week for almost running a stop sign and managed to spew so much random information when the cop came to my window that I scared him into not wanting to give me a ticket. I just kept talking I couldn’t stop. And the first words out of my mouth were ” I stopped Sir, I did”.
I feel like I try to do to much all of the time, and I don’t take a moment out to have any breaks. I rarely ever watch TV and Van doesn’t either. But I have put him in front of the TV to watch manny on the Disney channel here and there when i can’t seem to separate my self from those sheets in the am. I am simply tired because I can’t seem to get Van to sleep through the night. I am not going to be one of those mom’s that is like oh and our baby sleeps 12 hours a night, it is so wonderful. He wakes up twice a night for two feedings, and I have tried everything. I have read 4 books on sleep training and fed the boy 3 meals a day but nothing has worked so far.
It’s really hard to explain how hard this task is, I know I would be a much more sane person if I was sleeping through the night, and I could focus during the day. Lately I have felt like I have ADD going through the day aimlessly doing 8 projects at once, and wondering where the day really went at the end of it.
On a positive note Van’s physical therapy is going well, and they see improvements. I do too!
I thought this picture was funny because all of the ones of Van are of the front of his head, but this one gives you a little looksy at his mullet that is disappearing a little bit every day. He has the softest little blond downy fuzz on his head now. I love to rub his head at night after his bath when he is all snuggy next to me, falling into a slumber.
I love the time I have with Van each night before he goes to bed cuddling in his rocking chair, It makes my heart warm. Until 2am then we do it all over again!!!

I stumbled upon this website today and could spend hours on it creating with all these fun pieces! Click on my creation to go make your own. It is kind of a de-stresser. I mean your actually not doing anything really but creating. And that is Therapy for your brain and body. Kind of like downward dog for your brain.
Well Van continues to amaze me last night was a record breaker, he slept from 9pm – 5:45am. We will see if he preforms tonight. He is truly the love of my life and I am so thankful to Conner for helping me bring him into this world… Here is a little helpful thing on how much sleep kids need at certain ages.
Conner spent the weekend in Vegas at a celebrity Poker tournament, livin the dream. Thanks Ford for showing him a good time, he needed it. Who wouldn’t want to check out Giselle? Tomorrow we will most likely spend Fathers Day at the beach.

Yipee, Van slept through the night or well in newborn terms he did, he slept from 9pm til 2am, then I put him back down at 2:45 and with a brief wake up at 4am that only required a re-swaddle to our little houdini. I put him back down to sleep until 7am!!! Yes.
More on this later & how to get your baby to sleep longer at night. After reading 3 sleep books, including one from circa 1970′s I feel I have the answers now! I will share them later on today with a photo too! I love the kiddopotamus swaddle blanket in cotton for Houdini because he can pretty much get out of anything. I hear him grunting on the monitor and I look at him and one hand is up out of the blanket, but this one you can swaddle him so tight he cant really get out. He looks like a little burrito.










