Providence

I am tired….

But I am feeling touched this week by life, and all of the wonderful things we have here on this earth. Every moment counts! Don’t ever forget to tell the people you love that you love them and need them in your lives. You get what you give. Don’t ya forget it.

I have written in a journal for the past two and a half years to Van, aside from this Blog. My handwriting is messy and scribbled, and I am self conscious about it. But I know someday he will be able to see through my chicken scratches and see how much I truly care about him and our family. Every day is a new adventure, and I never can say I love you enough…. I rock him, I read to him, I feed him, I sing to him, I wash his silky blonde hair, I dance with him, I soak him up – every smile, new word, wrong color. Everything…..
It means so much and I just can’t get enough of him. He will be two in one week from today and I truly can’t believe it. I am a little sad about it all and I am not quite sure why. These emotions run deep, and they manifest themselves.

I hold onto the moments when I can still hold him on my hip, rock him to sleep, I know he will be too big soon to fit in this rocking chair with me, and his little hands will be bigger than mine one day. But right now I can take as many visual photographs as I want. They are mine to cherish and keep forever in my memory album.

I have been reading too much of the worldly news and although it is good to be up to date and current with the events of the world, it seems you can fill yourself with too much of it at times.

On a lighter note:
I have switched over from blogger to word press and that is why the blog looks terrible, I am working on it and the design elements should be pleasing to your eye someday soon.

Don’t forget to tell the ones you love, just how much they mean to you and how much you appreciate them, they may not be here tomorrow.

I give you this:

Providence  – a manifestation of divine care or direction.